So now God has been stirring another thought in me for a few months about how I fill up my wants so quickly. I’m actually quite a pro at it. I really can’t remember a time I deeply wanted anything that I wasn’t hatching a plan to fulfill it. The plan usually revolves around buying something, eating something or creating a plan to buy or eat something in the near future. None of these are wrong, of course. But at the same time, I hear God whispering to me, “Why won’t you just wait on me to fill you up?”
So, as we head into the busiest shopping, eating out season of the year, I made a small resolution to answer God’s whisper. It’s a little bit exciting and a little bit daunting. I, Debi Russell, will buy nothing for myself for the next 6 months. I really thought it through and determined it was a good way to create a little space to want and let God fill. To allow Him to move in my heart in ways I can’t when I feel all satisfied and stuffed and quenched. I just don’t let myself be very hungry or thirsty, metaphorically. (or otherwise) When David says in Psalms “My soul thirsts for you in a dry and weary land where there is no water” I cannot relate. Not really. But I long to.
So, just to be honest, I began the resolution a month ago, meaning I have five more months to go. Here’s what’s included in my non-buying plan: clothing, home decorations, jewelry, books, shoes (no new fall boots, sigh), purses, lunch out alone or little gifts for others “just because” (as these are essentially for me, because I love doing that, and I can easily replace it with baking something or writing a note). Here’s what I’m not including: gifts for birthdays/christmas for others, lunch with a friend, my nails (they’re already part of my grocery budget so I’m going with them), a new planner in January, replacement of an item that breaks if it’s my only one (like the hair dryer I bought last month).
Wish me well bloggy friends. I’ve taken off the shopper hat. I will absolutely keep you posted on the ups and downs over the next five months. Praying for God to give me His comfort and His joy as I say goodbye to my watered down versions of it for a bit.